Dear 10 Year Old Me,
Firstly, know that you are beautiful. No matter what the people at secondary school will say to you in the future, you are a ray of sunshine within those people who are full of negativity. You don’t need to look like them to be pretty, you can be pretty in your own way. You ARE good enough, and nobody else can tell you whether or not that’s true. If you believe it, then that’s enough.
Beauty isn’t just your appearance either, it’s inside of you. You will grow into an adult who is able to think more beautiful things than anyone else could imagine. You appreciate life for its beauty because you too were never appreciated in that way. The things you say and the way you manage to deal with things all contribute to your beauty – not just your face or your body.
Secondly, your mum loves you. No matter what she has done or will do, everything is unknown right now. Even you don’t know what’s wrong, how can people help you if you can’t help yourself?
Listen to what your parents say and take it into consideration, but don’t let them control you. If you start letting anyone completely control your life, then there’s a problem. You are a strong minded, strong willed girl. There aren’t any people in the world who can tell you how to live your life, and you must learn from your own mistakes rather than other people’s.
Stay away from boys, for now. For gods sake. You don’t need a boyfriend in Year 7. You’re at school to learn, not to worry about what those girls are saying or if that boy likes you. Just wait until later on, you’ll meet a guy who causes you some pain at first but I promise it turns out fine. Remember what I said about learning from mistakes? If you don’t go through that pain, you and that guy will never learn together and grow together. You’re both growing up, both learning, give it time.
Calm down. If you can prevent even the slightest bit of anxiety in your life then try it. Trust your instincts and your gut, if you don’t feel right then don’t do it. If you’re not sure, don’t do it. Just don’t let it stop you from doing things you really want to do – because you’ll regret it when you’re older. There are so many amazing things in the world that you’re going to miss out on until you’re much older, and that’s a shame.
Keep your friends close and your family even closer. Family is the most important thing in this world and being related to someone does not mean they are family. Family is loyalty, family is kindness and love and a ‘how are you’ message every now and again. People who are not related to you will end up being better family than people who are. Your friendship group will turn into a small family, so trust that maybe they know what they’re talking about when they tell you you’re worrying for no reason.
Stop giving up on everything. You CAN do things, no matter how average or ordinary you think you are. 10 years later, you will have completed and accomplished so many things that you never think you can do right now. Those things are different to everyone else’s accomplishments, and that’s OK. Yours are just as special. Stop comparing your life to other people’s, because it isn’t the same and it will never be; and believe me, you don’t want it to be either.
You will eventually get a dog, called Bob. He is going to be your best friend, and you can talk to him about anything. Bob is the pet who sticks by you no matter what, he will always be happy to see you, and he will support you through some of the hardest times of your life. He knows what he’s doing, he may be annoying sometimes but he loves you so much. Even if you have nobody, you will have him.
Finally, you can be alone. You can be alone and be strong and be capable at the same time, you don’t need anyone else – friends, a boyfriend, a large group of people – to tell you these things. As well as that, you will survive so many times in your life where you are completely alone. Guess what? You’re still alive, and in fact you’re stronger than you were before. You don’t need to jump from boyfriend to boyfriend to be reassured you’re pretty or you’re interesting. You can tell yourself that in the mirror every morning, and it will mean more coming from yourself.
Just let go. Be happy, appreciate the world for what it is, and try to see the good in every situation. I know it’s hard that you can’t see what everyone else sees in the same way, but you see it in your own way. I think that’s very special.